This week has been crazy so far– I’ve been seen at 8 auditions, and 4 of them were Equity calls! It’s also only 9am on Thursday morning, and I’ll definitely be seen at an appointment I have later today, and I have a very good feeling about being seen for the Equity call I’m currently waiting for. I’m #7 on the list, and it seems there aren’t all that many union members or alternates waiting to be seen.
The experience I’m gaining by being out here doing it all day every day has been invaluable. Even if nothing comes from this week’s auditions everything is a learning experience that works toward making the next one that much better. It feels like things are heading in the right direction for the first time in a long time, and it’s very exciting.
I am happy when I walk to the subway in the morning. I’ve realized that a few times over the past few weeks, but it hit me again this morning. I’m leaving my apartment about an hour and a half earlier than I used to, when even on the best day I’d still have an unnamed feeling hanging over me– the sort of thing that you don’t notice is there until it’s gone, like when the heat or a/c turns off in your house but you didn’t notice the sound until it was gone.
Things feel good. They feel right. Like I’m in the right place, doing the right thing, at the right time, and (I think I’ve mentioned this before) it’s incredibly freeing. I don’t feel nervous in an audition room because it’s becoming so commonplace, I appreciate every opportunity, and I am so happy to be doing this.